Just when you now you've got things figured out, life just has to prove you wrong.
When you're young, it's so easy to think you've got the world figured out. you go to school, meet new friends, keep the old ones, try to get your grades up, maybe more, but that's probably just it. you lie in bed at night thinking of your class schedule, wondering how the next day's gonna turn out to be. may it suck, may it rock, it doesn't matter 'cause you have a pack of awesomely reliable friends by your side.
These were the friends you've known for a long time. okay, maybe not THAT long, but just enough to see that they're okay with your rude(and sometimes improper and unladylike behavior), that they don't mind you being frank, that they don't really care if you're the type of girl who just loves being a crazy child who really couldn't care less about the world as long as she's happy and everyone important around her is. in short, they were TRUE FRIENDS.
These true friends accept you for who you are. they don't judge you by the way you dress, by how you act when you're really pissed off by classmates who just don't listen when you want the class quiet and behaved. you can tell them anything without worrying a single a bit that they might secretly let it slip to someone else. they don't even judge you for your secrets because they know you do the same. these friends are always there to listen to you even if they're in the middle of doing homework or studying for a test. they really won't mind anything. as long as it's you. you know why? 'cause they'd know you'd be the same.
They trust you. that's the most important thing in friendship. heck, that's the most important thing in a relationship. whatever it may be. they don't hesitate to tell you secrets, thinking you might laugh at them, they let you borrow they're most valuable stuff because they know you won't be careless enough to destroy it, they're not even afraid to tell you the truth because they're smart and sensible enough to know that if ever the truth hurts, lies are worse.
These are the type of friends you'd want to have for the rest of your lives. maybe even swore to have for the rest of you lifetime. you promise each other that no one would ever leave anyone's side, that you guys would always be there for each other, whether to rejoice, to comfort, or to break any heart-breaker's neck for even thinking he could pull it off.
And just when you feel your life's gonna turn out great (because even if you have a nonexistent love life like most have yet you still have REALLY great friends whom you wouldn't trade for the world), an unexpected twist of events change it. with a single poof and another whoosh, they're gone. just disappeared, leaving you in the middle of the world pondering your mind thinking 'what the hell just happened?'.
Then it sinks in to you. those two people who did a big part making your dull life colorful, are gone. they're not with you anymore. they're no longer there to greet you with a bright and happy "good morning" when you arrive in school, they're no longer there to listen to you right away when you're caught in a really tight situation, they're no longer there to give you advice when you really, badly need it, they're just not with you anymore.
"There's nothing you can do about it. Just move on" is now what you keep telling yourself. and yet, you can't find the heart to do it. to just move on. somehow, the picture isn't just the way you imagined it to be. it's just not right without them. you never, not even once, imagined going to school without those two right there. you never even thought about it, let alone want it to happen. ever! and now, it did. great, isn't it? yep, just bloody great.
But you know what? don't let it get in the way of you living a happy life. yes, it might not be complete, but that doesn't mean it can't be joyful. just think about it, you'll meet new more. maybe this will even give you the opportunity to meet a lot of great people. perhaps to you, no one can ever compare to those two as friends but there's no harm in trying now, is there?
Things happen for a reason. keep that in mind. just because two very important people in your life left you, it doesn't mean you've lost them. just because they're not there right in the spot to talk to and seek for advice doesn't mean they won't be there for you at all. anyway, there's always room for new friends (unless you have a very minuscule heart that is too pathetic to expand for its own good).
Don't give up on life just because it decided to trip you and let you fall on the ground. get up. dust some dirt on your clothes, hold your chin up, and move on. oh, and whatever you do, NEVER LOSE HOPE. i know i didn't.
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Andei Zoe S. Engracia and Angelica Monique M. Duwa, if you're reading this, i just want you to know that i really miss you.♥
